Omg sometimes I hate my life?

I am so dyslecix it's so hard for me to find a job. I'm not stupid and I'm aware of every damn thing in life it's so just hard fo rme to explain it when it comes to jobs and crap nobody gets me. My problem is I'm engaged to somebody who isn't mature sometiems (He's not a cheater he's a great man like that) but I mean as in money wise he's just not smart about saving (I don't work he does and he supports me and I do not complain abou tthat but I HATE DEPENDING ON HIM b/c i do not trust him with that) we just bought a car and our insureance is due in 3 months we haven't evens aved and it's 1500 it's just unreal I hate this stuff I just wish I could not be dyslexic so I could live my life the way I want and be happy omg I know this isn't a quesiton i Jut need to vent. GOd bless u all for listening.